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[kagekachou]

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[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

*to the library /o/

heads toward one of the tables nearer the back, where he tends to do some of his work, when they get there*

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

[good plan. following along behind him, pulling out a chair when they reach the table]

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

*sits down*

So that I'm not repeating anything that you already know or speaking others' business for them... Is there anything that you've heard already?

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

[so serious]

...no. Look, am I making you uncomfortable?

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

You're asking me that after specifically asking me about bad breakups?

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

Well... yeah.

I'm giving you a chance to back out.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

...that's a terrible offer.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

Why?

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

Forcing someone to turn down offers to back out of something that's unpleasant but possibly helpful makes it rather difficult on the person, don't you think?

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

I'm not forcing you. Look, I don't even know what the hell I'm doing.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

I never said it was a bad thing. And as far as I can tell, you're asking me about things that I've been through, on the chance that you might hear something that might help you with whatever you're going through right now.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

...yeah pretty much.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

You know about our jobs and what we do, correct? Tsuzuki and Kurosaki and all of us.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know about you guys. I've probably even talked to you about it some.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

So you know that our field agents always work with a partner. It's a professional partnership, but due to the nature of the job, the relationship usually ends up being deeper and more personal than you'd find with most jobs.

I work as secretary to the division chief now, but I started out in the field. It was a difficult time, both in terms of what we were dealing with at work and with where we were in our lives.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

[snorts softly]


Yeah. I know all about partners. And bad life timing.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

*nods*

We managed for a few months. But it turns out that there was a limit to... what I could take. I've said in the past that it was obvious that it couldn't have worked but... well, maybe that's true. But not in the way that I meant it.

So, after a few months, I ended it.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

So... when you ended things.

[has been watching his hands on the table for a while now, but looks up for this]

Did it feel like you'd just stopped caring?

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

That's difficult to say. I tried. I might have thought that it did. I was so frustrated at that point that it felt like I had to.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

... so some of it was just in your head.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

That was probably the case. Yes.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

...



Were you right?

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

About the fact that I couldn't handle the way things were? Yes.

About... the rest of it?

...no. Of course not.

[u-jerk.livejournal.com]

[...runs a hand through his hair. does not look particularly helped]

I don't want this to be my fault.

[kagekachou.livejournal.com]

I can't blame you for that.

It's likely that you have time still on your side, though. Even the deepest of misunderstandings can be fixed... but I wouldn't advise letting things linger.